the silence....its deafening....

music.
beautiful melodies.
sweeping through the air,
that surrounds you and me.
lovely,
soft,
melodies.
its begining to make me see,
your path to me.
emotions not present.
not gone.
just not visible.
show me the way,
and ill save you.
let the music flow through our veins,
and let it silence our voices.
til all we have left it that soft beating of our hearts.
beating together as one.
passion.
nervous.
startling first touch.
let me in,
i think that we will be okay.
if you just let the music show us the way.

What did you dream about last night?

my nightmares.

Ask me anything

all jacked up....

Floating not wait swimming...
Far far away from everything...
Don't need any air,
No longer will I need you to breath into me,
I will love u til my last breath...
No more breath.
Swimming beside him.
Talking laughing kissing.
All under this warm water,
We can see waves crash above us,
The sky looks ghoastly,
Like were not apart of the world anymore.
Drifting away,
Focus on his smile, his hair, his fingers intertwined with mine.
Just keep swimming you say :)

my life be like ((WoND3RLAND!!!!))

Today I told the truth...to your mom

Who also believes u should man up to your actions,

Face ur transgressions,

And help me overcome this obsticle.

You have me running blind...turning to things that ease my mind.

Lovely you say? Brokeness can't be healed.

So tell me when? When will I have my answer?

When will I be free of this awful and demented secret?

Sitting here I flash back to that time when I first fell in love with you,

What happened? We were one of those worldwind romances and now...

Were both broken, beaten down, lost.

I need u but I can't,

I gotta stand up and fight on my own.

Its my life at stake and if I'm not careful I might just slip away again,

Free falling in a downward spiral waiting for someone to catch me,

Slowly realzing that your not their anymore,

No one is.

I'm looking for a hero, someone to save what little I have of a heart left,

I don't have much to offer just the promise that

One day I will be strong again.

One day I will know no wrong by you,

One day I will spread my wings and fly away

To that place where ill find you again,

For now ill lay my head down to rest for eternity.

I hear your heartbeat right beneath your chest...

Hot skin against my face as I listen one more time,

To hear something I don't have anymore,

You lean your head down, waiting to hear my heartbeat again,

Nothing but silence fills my chest.

Alice how lucky you were,

To fall down a rabbit hole away from reality,

Save me one last time...

I make the path but I'm too weak to go alone...

Just save me one last time and with my last breath I will speak the truth.

needy mofo!!!!

will you stop it already!!! i swear!
if i dont text back after the first one, or the second,
or the 32nd txt message im pretty sure that im DEFINATLY NOT going to
text you back!!!

damn people need to chill the fuck out lol...

im just trying to live my life && if you dont like the way im doing things then fuck off. period. end of story.

chocolate starfish!

so tell me now...after all that we have been through and you still want me to lie?

im tired of fighting for you. im tired of fighting for myself.

i cant even hold my head up anymore, because of your worthless peice of shit.

i wonder how come i fell so hard, so fast, and so unwillingly.

i cant be loved back. no matter what i do i will never have a full heart to give again...and its all thanks to you.

sorry you guys this was a little rant lol :) but other than my secret coming out into the open,

blowing that entire ship up in the water with it,

its been a long fucking day lol and my sister decided to try to make me happy by us getting pedicures :)

and damn it felt good :D hehe so now onto a hot bath and a good nights sleep :D

peace, love, && ladybugs :)

reasonings?

so my cousin put me on a blind phone date...
we couldnt tell each other any thing about our appereances...
only talk about ourselves, what we like to do etc.
and omg...

idk about being the one for me...who knows its possible...but boy u definatly got a smile on my face...which after today i definatly needed. :)

amen to that!!! gnight bloggers :)